Who Am I?

I was born a girl on June 19, 1968 on my parents 3rd wedding anniversary in the back seat of a car in the hospital emergency doorway. My father held a sheet while a doctor caught me in his apron. I was the apple of my mother's eye and the thorn in my father's side.

I had a rather, shall we say, rough childhood. Friendships did not come easy to me nor did acceptance. I was somewhat of a freak and something that other children did not want to touch or even be associated with. I was a tomboy, or at least then I was. Boys thought I was trying to be a boy and girls thought I was weird, strange and something to be made fun of and belittled.

I finally got my first real friends in the 8th grade. I had two friends that were girls at this time and did keep in touch with them even after I had moved away. We were very close and it was nice to finally have someone that accepted me. I found that befriending others who felt as out of place as I did seemed to work better than trying to blend with the popular kids.

I had friends all through high school and college but there was always something different about me. I had gotten married, had a son and the marriage did not work out. Other relationships never seemed to work out either. The last boyfriend held me at gun point swearing up and down that I had stolen something of his that I never had seen or even knew he had until then. I had a second child with the last boyfriend but gave her up for adoption as I did not want to take out my anger toward her because of what her biological father did to me. I decided after the last violent boyfriend that I would wait for my one true soul mate.

In March 2008, I realized why it was that I was so different from others and what it was that was holding me back all my life. I came out as a FTM (Female To Male) transgendered male and started living as a man. I began testosterone therapy and pondered the various surgeries available for today's FTM'S. I still like guys, so I'm considered gay. I live as a gay man now and I feel much better about myself and my life. But there has always been one thing missing from my life.

In mid February 2011 I was awakened to my twin flame or twin soul. I realized for the first time who he was, where he was and what he did for a living. I had always known what his job was even when I was a small child, but now I had proof. I almost made my mother choke on a coco-cola one day when I announced that I was going to marry an musician. Although I have since found out that he is a true artist as well. That just adds to the overall picture. 

Now I'm waiting for him to see me. I'm waiting for him to contact me or for us to eventually be together. This blog will reflect many things from my life and my personal thoughts.

Here are some links to posts that give a bit more info to who I am:

About Me
Pics Of Me
My Favorite Band 
My Cutie Pie Mauw Mauw
Facebook Sucks
I Love Anime!
My Dream Boat
Other Bands/Music I Like 
Favorite TV Shows
OK Now The Big Screen - Favorite Movies
My Pets, Past & Present 
My Favorite Literature 
My Tattoos