In Your Reality

Copyright: 12\26\98
In Your Reality

(chorus)

In your reality I don't exist
In your reality I can't persist
In your reality I can't be free
In your reality, no hope for me.

In your reality there is a God
In your reality a demon's pod
In your reality revolving around you
In your reality time's step anew.

Giving into your everyday examples
Of life, learning, family and happiness
I walk the road of a stranger
Who looks through the glass, and I'm pissed.

(bridge)

All you can see in your own shitty way
Is the peace of mind your reality shattered today.

Reality believes no realm
When you devour the lever
Happiness is a fate less known
When you plight the endeavor
Reality imposes upon imagination
And sanity becomes suspect
Kindness lands on my deaf ears
As your reality fills the deck.

(repeat bridge)

(repeat chorus)

Depression

Copyright: 2/13/96
Depression

When the pain becomes too much
And I feel out of touch
When life deals dark hands
And my weapons unmanned
Unnatural feelings of despair
Other people don't care
Believing and knowing pain
Unwanted for at all no gain
Depression settles in my mind
Settling like salt and unkind.

Feeling down and disbelievingly low
Rain falls and becomes the snow
I feel as though I am the only one
Now I know all is lost I am done
I try to pick myself up quickly
But fear berates me and they see
Unpleasant worries stops the cold
Memories of the past are too bold
Depression counts for something
Leveled by an unreal sting.

Deadening the suffering can be almost impossible
Standing corrected can leave you void and null
When life passes you exclusively by
There's no time for all the lies
When I feel depressed and alone
To the clouds destination unknown
I fill myself with joy if I can
Chameleon counterpart grain of sand
Silence is deadly and I'm calm
Standing aside, depression I'm drawn.

Feelings singe deep within my soul
Feelings no one understands or knows
When I think aloud I'm a loner
Are people so easily swayed and cloned?
Why am I the only one that feels this?
I can't win I just play hit or miss
Take some time to look severely around
Realize others call to the sound
I am not alone and my feelings understood
Doing what's right, just and good.