Unsettled

Written: 5/25/95
Copyright Demented Thinking Productions  1998
Unsettled

Living in this world today
All we can do is pray
Streets are in chaos
Children are a loss.

State of kindred affairs
Confusion, no one cares
Contemplating our existence
Seeing the resistance.

(chorus)

Unsettled
Our world
Unsettled
Absurd

Gangs own the destitute land
Who's at fault? Man?
Bitching, complaining all we do
Control we need to pursue.

State of kindred affairs
Confusion, no one cares
Contemplating our existence
Seeing the resistance.

(chorus)-repeat #1 +

Unsettled
Life
Unsettled
Continued strife.

Truth

Copyright: 2/18/98
Truth

Silence the masses
Beats confusion and pain
Harmonious gases
Dictator's agonizing stain.

Take away their books, so the can't read
Take away the movies, so they can't feed
Take away our music, No I don't think so
Take away our thoughts to support their dough.

Putting a gag order
On our very lives
Their drunken stupor slurs
Nothing will sacrifice.

Power hungry, must rule with an iron fist
Dividing a nation to sides, government ass kiss
Souls left to wither and die, not this time
Censoring our voice and stealing the rhyme.

(pre-chorus)

Unite, stand up and fight
We can take them if we try
Unite, destroy their "insight"
Show them we won't die.

(chorus)

Ask me the truth
I'll tell you no lies
Ask me the truth
We can't let music die.

Purgatory in their grips
Settling for contentment
With political lying lips
Censored hints.

Take away our lives, so we can't learn and breathe
Take away our soul, succumb to their illogical need
Take away our voice, so we shall never again speak
Take away our strength, so we infiltrate the weak.

A world in slavery
To leaders who don't understand
Is that the way it's to be?
Our best defense unmanned.

(pre-chorus)

(chorus)

Trespass

Copyright: 12\26\98
Trespass

You think you'll take my soul
But you didn't expect me to lose control
You delight in a madman's tale
But you've considered not the price of the spell.

You believe life is complete
But you lie unsuspecting in agonizing defeat
You belittle my wants and needs
But stroke the eternal fire as it bleeds.

(pre-chorus)

Coming under the gun
Things look different, undone
Sleeping in the ruins
Startled as the destruction blooms.

(chorus)

Bow now to this trespass
Just give death a chance
Bow now to this trespass
Speak now and take the stance.

As the flame burns my heart
I will dictate your demise and rip you apart
As time wards my only sense
I will take my toll and tear down the fence.

As I lie helpless and bleeding
You will see my deception and start pleading
As I stomp out your life
You will realize your mistake and succumb to die.

(repeat pre-chorus)

(repeat chorus)

The Lost Angel

Copyright: 2/20/98
The Lost Angel

I fell to earth
You know me.

My wings fled disabled
Am I free?

My knees are scabbed
Can't you see?

What of death and hell
I can be...

Your leader, your brother, your mother, your father.

The fire burns in my soul
What is this?

Contemplating my deliverance
Hit and miss.

I can no longer fly here
I just hiss.

I shall rise again and rule
In chaotic bliss.

As your mother, your sister, your friend, your leader.

There will come a time
When I fight back
No reason or rhyme
I will attack.

But be so aware
Of my discriminating wrath
Revenge of hell's stare
Burning and you'll crash.

(chorus)

The lost angel, lost no more
Do my bidding, be my whore
The lost angel, with scabs and sores
My servants settle the score.

The Looking Glass

Written: 11/16/90
copyright 1991 Demented Thinking Productions
The Looking Glass

Inevitable predictions of space and time
A dream of the nightmare to follow
Realizing the serge of pain in my mind
Knowing one less exists on my planet sorrow.

Dreaming around the witching hour, half past
Floating thru darkness on a road once there
Reaching below me something just within my grasp
Above all control is lost no pain to bare.

(pre-chorus)

Waking- Bad dreams haunt my brain
Reality- Premonitions remain
Knowing- Death has taken his victim
Finding- Out- the future is grim.

(chorus)

Observe verity unfold in front of my eyes
Unable to stop this madness
Aware while watching my loved ones die
The all seeing eye in the looking glass.

A woman lies on her death bed weak from disease
Her man by her side while she sleeps
He whispers softly, "Don't leave me, please."
She gives up the ghost while he weeps.

Envision riding man and predicting his fate
Discovering later of his brutal homicide
Tried to warn him, but now it's too late
Now he rides clouds on his Harley in the sky.

(repeat pre-chorus)

(repeat chorus)

(bridge)

The power of knowing in advance what's to be
Has been bestowed upon only me
No way to stop it knowing they are going to die
Words I know quite well, here they lie
Growing feelings of darkness on the rise
Clairvoyant predictions of their demise
Dreaming death emotional scars run deep
The salt shifts through while I sleep.

(chorus #2)

The all seeing eye in the looking glass
That's what I am and always will be
The all seeing eye in the looking glass
Look into the future death is all I see.

No need for a crystal ball when you're the all seeing eye in the looking glass.

The Curse

Copyright:11\2\98
The Curse

I see inside
But you don't know
I know you lied
And it's time to go.

I see the truth
But you don't care
The point is mute
Now you just stare.

(pre-chorus)

As the sun reflects the night
Time shifts and salts the opening
Robbed me of the power of right
Only death can it bring.

As you sit and reflect past life
Time takes it's toll and ages you
Robbed and stumbling on the edge of a knife
Death regrets nothing, starts anew.

(chorus)

The curse
Now you will kneel
The curse
A time to kill.

Wickedness breeds
Deep from within
Planting seeds
Living with my sin.

Hatred must drive
Insanity to the brink
Somehow alive
Straighten the kink.

(repeat pre-chorus)

(repeat chorus)

(bridge)

In the night I fade from the light of day
As your life lies at my stained feet
I sink my teeth in and you're betrayed
Killing power bestowed in everyone I greet.

(repeat pre-chorus)

(repeat chorus)

Silent Rage

Written: 5/22/95
Copyright Demented Thinking Productions 1998
Silent Rage

An ordinary man sits alone, his head in his hands
Waiting for justice from his racial reprimand
Black and white fight like cats and dogs
Spinning in circles we can't seem to beat the fog.

We're thrown together to deal with the hate
But we drift apart and seal our only fate
Alliance should rush and pulse in our veins
Remove the mask and only madness remains.

(pre-chorus)

What does it take to get along?
Can't you see prejudice is wrong?
When do we start to work together?
And make it through this stormy weather.

(chorus)

When hatred feeds the fire
Man becomes a lair
When people notice skin color
Silent rage recovers.

People are the same with the same feelings
Our own future a game, risk we're dealing
No one can see our world crumbling around us
Our last words ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

Streets are corrupt with violence and drugs
Warming to the enemy our graves are dug
Now in our fighting existence pain only remains
How did our lives get so insane?

(pre-chorus)

What does it take to see eye to eye?
Now all that remains are lies
How many young lives do we sacrifice?
What disaster do we entice?

(chorus)

(bridge)

Silent rage
Into the cage
Men are created equal
Harkening the call
Silent rage
Trapped in a maze
See your fellow man
Lend him a hand.

(pre-chorus)-2nd

(chorus)

Reap What You Sew

Copyright: 3/8/98
Reap What You Sew

You think you've got it made
But deep inside you know
Calloused stone heart of jade
It's time to Reap what you sew.

You ask, follow me
But you don't know where
Disabled faith for free
Welcome to the lair.

Is it all you thought it would be?
Do you really think we're that stupid?
Is all of this really for me?
Are you remorseful for all you did?

(solo)

You tell us what we should do
But you give no real direction
Haunted eyes blazing anew
Reap what you sew, malice protection.

You preach, sin not
But you are not worthy
Wiping your ass with our snot
Useless, but you can't see.

Is this world coming to an end?
Do you really expect many believers?
Is this the acrid smoke or wind?
Are you hurt, do you take your leave?

When you're down
And no one is there
Do you frown?
Do you care?
Do you really
Reap what you sew?

Pay The Piper

Written: 10/19/92
copyright 1992 Demented Thinking Productions
Pay the Piper

You wander through life in a drug induced haze looking for the ultimate high
But before you know it, your life has passed you by
You live in filth, stealing, panhandling, and conning your friends to get your next fix
But didn't anyone tell you that drugs and life doesn't mix.

(chorus)

It's time to pay the piper
Vital signs dwindling away
Pay the piper
You death could come today.

Slipping the infested needle into your pulsating vein as your nights fade into days
Disease ridden, A.I.D.S. sticks you, your postage pre-paid
Arraigning your own death sentence, make the proper arrangements, demise sure to come
Dying from the inside out, living is done.

(repeat chorus)

Snorting your whole life savings into your sore, reddened nostrils day in and day out
A big business man who runs out of clout
Unable to cope with life's little curves, putting your family on the auction block
Taking your life and belongings to be hocked.

(repeat chorus)

A violent struggle within your tortured mind, ill disposition, sucking on addiction, a crack pipe
Unable to decipher what's wrong and what's right
Drifting into your own little comatose world, trying to rid yourself of your relentless problems
Bringing yourself up from down, your future is dead grim.

(repeat chorus)

(flat line sound)

Once A Man

Copyright: 2/20/98
Once a Man

Murdered by those he trusted
Flung into the fiery furnace
Lock and key completely dusted
Kept years rotting in this place.

Now he must be set free
Choices mark his every move
Good or evil brings his killing spree
No love, nothing will soothe.

A villain or an angel
He will decide for himself
His blood lust vengeance to quell
Mental anguish, clown's no help.

Once a man
Now he must do his bidding
An iron hand
Discover who is his king.

Made a deal
With the devil himself
It's so unreal
Pitched into the depths of hell.

The rage, the fury
Unsettled, he must see
The insanity, the key
Hunger, he must be.

The pain, the flood
Feelings, he must control
The anger, the blood
Savage, he will blow.

(chorus #1)

Once a man / Now a Spawn
From the abyss / Of hell now gone
A clown to guide / A predator
Heartache, confusion / Covering sores.

(chorus #2)

Once a man /Now a Hell Spawn
Feeling the hunger / Revenge dawned
A fight to the end / Deadly game
He's the Spawn / He's not insane.

The damned don't get reprieve
The man doesn't bleed he seethes

Rank and file, no commandments
Following that path, hell sent
Thrust into death as life descends
A Spawn burned and on the mend
Look in his eyes, he can't pretend
Bent on violence he won't bend.

(chorus #2)

Now I'm Dead

Copyright: 3/8/98
Now I'm Dead

I wait
I wait for the darkness to take me
I wait
Here in the ground.

It's cold
Cold and alone, blood refreshes me
It's cold
Listening to human sounds.

It's nice here
In the dark
It's cold here
In the grave.

My bones creak
In my head
Brittle and break
Now I'm dead!

Worms will crawl
Through my flesh
Rats will gnaw
Upon my death!

Open the lid and look inside
You'll see someone died
Open your mind and be me
But you'll see my slavery un-free.

Dig the dirt out with your hands
Pierce my eyes get me out of this can
See the rot, tears sting your eyes
Don't weep for my I've said my goodbyes.

(chorus)

Now I'm dead, misled
Now I'm dead
Now I'm dead, enough said
Now I'm dead

My head aches
Through my ears
Only I forsake
All of my fears.

Maggots will slither
Into their place
Snakes come hither
Into my face.

Forget yourself and stow away
Lock yourself down with me today
As my flesh tears away in the night
See my eyes burn with the light.

Death has summoned me right here
I can be reborn devout of fear
Spread my wings and I can fly
Sprout new fangs blood doesn't lie.

(chorus)

Lifeless And Dead

Copyright: 3/5/98
Lifeless and Dead

Decorated love within reason
But some don't realize the treason
Almighty and maybe God sent
Sleeping oblivion was never meant.

Keep your distance arm's length
Keep up stamina and your strength
But this fallacy will not die
Yet on a cross here he lies.

(chorus)

Lifeless and dead
You left us all
Lifeless and dead It's your turn to fall.

(bridge)

As the raging wind blows deep within our minds
Time is of the essence, no sacred faith will find
We are bound to this world this one true God
Sold our souls for pennies spared the wrath rod.

Love with strings from above
Can't shake this morbid dove
Resurrecting our hopes and fears
No longer able to live with tears.

Feeling stronger every single day
Fucked, a disappointing lay
Decayed and eaten from the inside
Fury because one we believed in lied.

(repeat chorus)

(repeat bridge)

In Your Reality

Copyright: 12\26\98
In Your Reality

(chorus)

In your reality I don't exist
In your reality I can't persist
In your reality I can't be free
In your reality, no hope for me.

In your reality there is a God
In your reality a demon's pod
In your reality revolving around you
In your reality time's step anew.

Giving into your everyday examples
Of life, learning, family and happiness
I walk the road of a stranger
Who looks through the glass, and I'm pissed.

(bridge)

All you can see in your own shitty way
Is the peace of mind your reality shattered today.

Reality believes no realm
When you devour the lever
Happiness is a fate less known
When you plight the endeavor
Reality imposes upon imagination
And sanity becomes suspect
Kindness lands on my deaf ears
As your reality fills the deck.

(repeat bridge)

(repeat chorus)

Hibernation

Written: 10/19/92
copyright 1992 Demented Thinking Productions
Hibernation

I stalk my awaiting victims in the obscurity of a moonlit night
Easy prey, I crouch down in the shadows and stay well out of sight
I watch them intently from the protection of my ghastly hiding place
Careful not to make a sound, they squirm, and scream, but they don't see my face.

I thrive on spilled blood, and gouging out their insides with my carving knife
I get a thrill out of piercing their jugglers and taking their menial, mundane lives
I'm calm, cool, and collected, a cold, calculated killer on the loose
I escape certain death, near-misses with the law, avoiding the noose.

I skin my prey, or sometimes I just leave them for dead to bleed
A serial killer, homicidal, cannibalistic fiend, bloodshed's all I need
I may wear a mask, I may roam the streets searching for my next kill
I can be the most normal person you know, a next-door neighbor looking for a thrill.

(chorus)

Now I lay waiting in the dark for you
I'm strong and merciless, nothing you can do
Just a few seconds, your life's over and done
Now I must leave where they can't find me, hibernation.

Forever

Copyright: 2/18/98
Forever

I know you
I watched you die
Writhe and scream
In pain you now lie.

Faith is little
My bloodbath mends me
Hopeless and unaware
Now I clearly see.

(chorus)

With an axe
Or a gun
Maybe a knife
It's forever done.

(chorus #2)

With a saw
Or hammer
Maybe a bet
Never the slammer.

Your skin befalls you
I watched you bleed
Drop by drop
Quenched my needs

Broken and battered
You live no more
Lifeless lump
I'll settle the score.

(chorus #2)

Draining You Dry

Copyright:2/19/98
Draining You Dry

We can't see
Do you believe?
That he's free
Are we slaves?
To a reality, beyond all existence, completely unseen.

We can't hear
Are the voices there?
Live in fear
Don't you see?
That it's a joke, a fate held so compromised near and dear.

(pre-chorus)

Say, God are you there?
Or just a figment
Say, God do you care?
Are you really heaven sent?

We can't feel
Are our fingers numb?
You will kneel
Will you succumb?
To something invisible, certain death, all is lost, my last breath, now I kneel, hope killed.

We can't taste
Are our tongues severed?
It's a waste
How long is never?
When infinity comes, agonizing defeat, all my life, lies told, ends meet, in hate.

(pre-chorus)

(chorus)

The leach, sucking your blood
The leach, making you repent
Draining you dry
Draining you dry
Preacher, speaking of brimstone
Preacher, heaven bound or hell bent?
Watching you die, while
Draining you dry
Draining you dry
Draining you dry
Draining you dry.

Can we smell?
Smell the defeat
Smell the rot
See the disgust
An insignificant spot
A speck in distrust
See the pain
Feel the hatred
Bathe in acid rain
As our God feeds.

Draining you dry
Draining you dry
Draining you dry
Draining you dry.

Death's Door

Copyright: 1\10\99
Dedicated to the memory of: Dee Govan
Death's Door

Life is so infinitely fragile
We sail the seas of love
And passion means nothing
When everything is said and done.

Death is so completely final
And hearts sink in abysmal ink
As we strum our fingers
And try hard not to think.

Cataclysmic cannons fire upon
The lives and deaths of past
As through it all sorrow stands
Within midst of breaths last.

(chorus)

Did you see the sun today?
Did you wisp the morning air?
Have you tasted the first dew.
At death's door, it's not fair.

Beginnings pretend to prove love
We feel, hate, pant and wonder
What is on the opposite side
As life fades from the thunder.

Out spoken killer regrets nothing
Watching the children quickly die
Death steps in and takes hold
Upon the youth of power and we cry.

Peace only comes to those kind
And death pursues any who struggle
But we can plainly, truly see
Your memories display affectionate lulls.

(chorus)

Did you see the sunset today?
Did you soak in the violet rays?
Have you smelled the fall?
At death's door, the final days.

The demon takes charge
And the suffering begins
But through it all now
She casts a smile at it's sin.

(repeat both chorus')

Dead

Copyright:2/18/98
Dead

A soulless wonder
Floating through space
The time and place
Is far from home.

Looking back in certainty
Stumbling over rocks
Settling the blocks
And persevering.

Breaking out of jail - Don't need this hell
Keeping life afresh - What's this mess?
Searching our hearts - A brand new start
Hoping for our freedom - Ruling the kingdom.

Watched in a fishbowl
A glass house without stones
Becoming the drones
I will conquer.

Death and despairity
Depriving human contact
Our lives so hacked
And yet on the level.

Bringing the chaos home - Enslaving the dome
Unleashing the rotting corpses - Never realizing the source
Realizing  the potential - Domination circumstantial
Holding the world captive - Paid to the highest bid.

Tell me, who decides our fate?
Are we in control of our own destiny?
Why can't we touch it, feel it, or see?
Is god dead?

Have we overstepped our bounds?
Are we able to regain our control?
Or is the world falling into a hole?
Is God dead?

Has he forsaken us?
Will he be taking us?
Has he been faking us?
Is God dead?

Crimson

Copyright:3/5/98
Crimson

Dig deep in your gut
Spill the bloodied hatred
Get out of the rut
See who really cares.

If you're looking for answers, there are none
If you have questions, then just get in line
If you want peace, look deep inside your head
If you want to interrogate me, you'll be dead.

(chorus)

See the crimson flow
Through my dirty fingertips
See the crimson die
Too far to quit.

Slaughter of hundreds
Cast of a thousand
Sell for the highest bid
Believe me for what I am.

Feel the pain and horror, you may live
Feel nothing completes you, the way I did
If your feeling a bit detached, it's no problem
Life goes on for the rest of us, time served.

(chorus)

As I am
One and true
Bow to me
Nothing you can do.

As I walk
Among the dead
Give me strength
The blind led.

(chorus)

Cold

Copyright: 12\26\98
Cold

The human condition
Needs some nutrition
And as you can see
It's all part of my killing spree.

Severing the feelings
Abrupt and kneeling
On the altar of finished death
And taking your dying last breath.

(pre-chorus)

It gives me great pleasure
To introduce myself
I am a fiend without regret
And you've threatened my health.

(chorus)

As the scene unfolds
You realize my pain
And stand alone
Raped of life and cold.

If only human contact
Could keep fate lacked
And you could swim
In a sea of whim.

Packing in disappointment
And making the dent
Keeping my distance
And shattering the suspense.

(repeat pre-chorus)

(repeat chorus)