Lifeline

Copyright: 2/16/96
Lifeline

Fading to black hearing no sound
Self inflicted blast
Lying face down on the ground.

Razor burns on your wrists
Self inflicted to the last
Drifting in a pool of bloody kisses.

Dozing off on junk and pills
Remembering the past
Sleeping for your life kills.

Drinking yourself into oblivion
First stone cast
No longer the same son.

Make a noose and hand it tight
No talk back, no sass
Set it straight, make right.

Roll up the windows start the car
Flag at half mast
In this life, you won't get far.

Pour out the deadly gasoline
Perfect your craft
Deadly death and surely clean.

Plummet to the hard earth
Jump your last
There is no known rebirth.

Once you've considered these routes
Pull out forget the draft
Go on give suicide the boot.

Your own lifeline beats strong
Not able to really laugh
Once you cut the line you're gone.

So think about what you do
Leaving us behind, crashed
One mistake and you could be through.

Things will get better if you try
Stop living in the past
Lifeline goes on, time will lie.

Depression

Copyright: 2/13/96
Depression

When the pain becomes too much
And I feel out of touch
When life deals dark hands
And my weapons unmanned
Unnatural feelings of despair
Other people don't care
Believing and knowing pain
Unwanted for at all no gain
Depression settles in my mind
Settling like salt and unkind.

Feeling down and disbelievingly low
Rain falls and becomes the snow
I feel as though I am the only one
Now I know all is lost I am done
I try to pick myself up quickly
But fear berates me and they see
Unpleasant worries stops the cold
Memories of the past are too bold
Depression counts for something
Leveled by an unreal sting.

Deadening the suffering can be almost impossible
Standing corrected can leave you void and null
When life passes you exclusively by
There's no time for all the lies
When I feel depressed and alone
To the clouds destination unknown
I fill myself with joy if I can
Chameleon counterpart grain of sand
Silence is deadly and I'm calm
Standing aside, depression I'm drawn.

Feelings singe deep within my soul
Feelings no one understands or knows
When I think aloud I'm a loner
Are people so easily swayed and cloned?
Why am I the only one that feels this?
I can't win I just play hit or miss
Take some time to look severely around
Realize others call to the sound
I am not alone and my feelings understood
Doing what's right, just and good.