Sorry if the German is wrong or bad. My German promptly sucks lol. If you get a giggle from my bad google translated German that is fine at least I made you smile today! :) I hope that you got my letter that I posted below. If not read it please.

A Letter To My Twin Flame/Soul Mate

Hallo Twin!

You may wonder why I'm writing this letter to you. Well, quite frankly I'm doing this per your request. You asked me to write down how & what I felt about you and the situation so I'm doing that with this letter. Most of this stuff will probably only make sense to you, so I'm not really worried about others reading it as its the only way I can contact you and put my ideas/thoughts & feelings in one place easily. So here goes...

First and foremost, I know it sounds really weird but I do love you even though we have not met face to face yet. I love you more than you know right now and not for the reasons you may think. I'm not interested in what you do for a living as a job, what you have, how much you have, what you can do for me, who you know or anything of the sort. I love your heart, soul & mind. You are a beautiful person inside and out. I love how kind and how passionate you are. I love the fact that you love teddy bears. I love the fact that you have been there for me in just about all ways when I was crying or needed to be held, and you used to sing to me to calm me down. I love how you wanted to protect me from my parents even though you could not be here physically. I love how you have always thought of me and kept me close to your heart even though you really were not sure if I was real or not. I love the fact that you have written so many things that include me whether you know it or not. I love you unconditionally with no strings attached. I will always love you even if you hurt me, I always love you.

I have waited for you for some time. Every since I was 16 years old and made the promise to you to wait for you and you would wait for me as well. Since then, yes, I did get married because I thought you were gone. I have also gotten divorced because he was not you and I realized that you were still out there and not dead as I had thought for some time. I have now been celibate for 16 years. Yes, you read right... 16 long years. LOL. After my last relationship ended in a complete cluster fuck and me not knowing what the hell happened I decided that just being with anyone was not worth it anymore and I would wait for my soul mate/twin flame before I had sex with anyone again or even entered a relationship. I got tired of men annoying me, boring me, not knowing what to do with me, how to treat me and how to satisfy me. In my opinion they all sucked badly so what was the point in being with someone who was not my soul mate/twin flame? I know in my heart that we will meet one day and I hope that day is VERY soon, but that is entirely up to you. The ball is in your court so to speak.

I am not really a patient person, so I'm sorry if I have been pushing you for us to meet but I want to get started with the rest of my life and be happy with a relationship for once. I feel incomplete and torn in half. I feel like a part of me is across an ocean miles away. I want to be complete, have you in my life physically and be together physically. I need your reassurance that this will happen in some way. Does not matter how you do it, but for me that would go a long way. I'm inpatient, I know this and I cannot help it. I know this will work out just fine even if you are a little scared, I understand, but let me help you for once not to be scared. I realize this is all very weird and strange. Its weird for me too.

About 7 months ago you received a poem from me. The poem was called "Bid My Lover To Thee". This poem I wrote back in 2001 and I did not write it by myself. In fact, this was one of a few poems that I believe I wrote with you through a twin mental/psychic link of some kind. It was kind of like an out of body experience writing a poem with a second person who was not physically there in the room with me. Some of the ideas of the poem just came to me in my mind and I went with it and wrote them down. It was kinda like being on auto-pilot and just writing something without really knowing where it would end. This poem pertains the most to our situation, or at least I think so anyways. This poem also should send the message that I have/am waiting, maybe not so patiently at this point but waiting just the same.

It was my intention, although its obvious to me now that it was not your intention for whatever reason, that this poem would bring us together in the physical world. I was hoping that you would see it, know it was me and look me up from the info that I left on the poem like my nickname on my profile. Then you would see on my profile my other links and where I was, phone number etc and things would naturally progress from there. But they did not. I have been VERY upset and EXTREMELY hurt since then because I was not sure if you had read the poem or even if you had rejected me.

I understand now that you have been "getting ready" for this. This is what you told me not too terribly long ago. You said you were "getting things in order" is how you put it. I see the changes now and I only want what is best for you. I'm glad that you are doing well and I hope that you are still interested in being with me. I am interested in being with you as your life partner. Thank you for reading, hopefully you got this far in the letter lol. :) Take Care, Love you.

Len

What you may not know...

When I was a small child you were always there to comfort me, talk with me, hold me, and dry my tears. You used to sing to me when I was very upset from other children making fun of me or treating me really badly or had a particularly bad day with my abusive alcoholic father. You kept me going, you kept me from killing myself, you essentially kept me alive and gave me a reason to live. Our hearts beat as one. Our souls are mingled and entwined. We are twins. I love you for what you have done for me and how you have healed me. I love you for who you really are on the inside. I have waited for a long time for you since the promise we made to each other when I was 16 years old. I still wait and will wait. I love you, forever.

What You Mean To Me

I never rejected you in Cleveland. I would never do that. I never heard what you said, and then your attention was taken away by someone else. I only heard you telling him to fuck off, I did not hear the rest of what you had said. I’m sorry that we did not stay. I wanted to but when I saw the chicks that were picked and lead to the back area it made me sick so I had to leave. I assumed you would be too busy with them to bother with me.

Did you see my hair? I dyed my Mohawk a bright red. It looked pretty cool!

Did you see my poem? It was called “Bid My Lover To Thee”. Its in your book.

I love you and do want you, please never think that I do not.

Fates Of The Heart

Copyright - 03/15/00
Fates of the Heart

Though the lover’s darkness holds no more
And am I the one to perish?
Under the dealt pressure of those before
Will our fates entwine to one?

Drought and nought will he begin to seek
And am I doomed to love failure?
Psychic link and almost utterly afraid to peek
At the splendor above the horizon.

Longing for his soft touch, a sigh, or kiss
And am I to wait impatiently?
Beginning our co-existing lives, cannot quit
Without putting up the fight.

Circumstances draw from the far to the near
And will he know it’s me?
Moments of silence, face to face and he’s here
Will I shudder and shrink?

Catching the very glimpse in his eyes
And knowing the time has come
He holds me tightly without goodbyes
Knowing our destinies are set.

Fates of the heart my lover comes nigh
And forgetting me not this day
Unspoken, un-uttered words and sighs
He is my fate for always.

Bid My Lover To Thee

Copyright - 01/20/01
Bid My Lover to Thee

As I sit alone and forever waiting
I seek the one and true, my love
It seems a lifetime has passed me by
And he will bring my soul to rest
The night it creaks and moans his song
As I prepare for the awaiting moon
And I dive into love as waves sing.

My lover knows me in this and the other
Realms, which cannot be tested beyond knowledge
For my lover bids me to come
And he waits on his own time
As the stars grace the midnight air
I bid him to come to thee
Bring him close and near as it were.

He knows when I sleep, he knows when I wake
My lover sends his love on the highway
Of life and the physical astral planes
His love enlightens me through my day
And I will know no significant other
Until my lover comes home for me
Waiting for his move to make.

I bid my lover greetings to thee
And I know he will bring love on his wings
For he is my sun, my moon, and my night
In which I live and thrive through the day
Enveloping my darkness I’ll succumb
To his whims once in his arms
And now I wait and bide my time for he.

As he sends his love along the rose petals of night
I compel myself to greet his open arms
And drown my sorrows in his chest
As the moon rises in the sky I pray
Thee would flee to me with kindness
I bid thee my love and crown thee my king
And help me end my plight.

My lover can only be true and fair to me
As he winds down the road to passion
I am here and awaiting his calm touch
He brings forth the moment without despair
And the man to whom I wait longs
I linger in his arms at finally last
And now my love for him can be set free.